I could easily worship while I folded laundry and swept up the sand that tracked in from outside. I love cleaning our home, it serves our family. I can worship while I do that. I can wipe down the counters. While I’m at it I can plan for my week of work and map out my list of to-dos. I can consult the calendar.
But I can’t sit still. I can’t BE still.
This isn’t worship at all. This is bondage. Read More
You are here. Right now.
If I’m being really truly honest, here isn't a place I'm enjoying…and I know it’s kind of icky to read a mom say that…it’s icky to be the mom who feels it. Oh wouldn’t I love to be floating on cloud of motherly contentment with this season! But this season of motherhood is just hard and so tiring. Wouldn’t it be delightful if enchantment for every single season of life just naturally swelled in us and flowed out of us? Instead, I’ve been fighting, sometimes spitting mad, against this season and I’m exhausted…so I’m done. I’m done fighting it. I’m here. Here is where I am right now, today.
Accepting this basic condition of my reality means admitting an ugly truth to myself and even more so to the Giver of Life. Facing the nasty brass tacks of my sinfulness, yet again, I found mercy and grace on the other side. And that brings me here, to all of you, because I have this little inkling that maybe…just maybe I’m not the only one digging my heels in and demanding to be somewhere else past or future but this present place just isn’t my cup of tea. Read More
“Please. Just don’t give up on Jesus” the Mennonite minister begged through tears after his son confided in him that he was gay. That was the father’s biggest concern: don’t give up on Jesus. Those words reverberated through my mind and my heart for weeks. No matter what changes, what is lost, what is found: please don’t give up on Jesus. Read More
I catch myself in these terribly cliche moments of momstering on the drive to church and I hate it. So this year, with the onset of varying school drop off schedules, pick up lines for dayzzz, bible study mornings, MOPS, and my part time job, I couldn't continue in my frantic ways. Something had to change, so I've taken up a new spiritual practice. Read More
Again, before I can even catch my breath from the last thing. After reading the most recent news I went outside with my coffee and watched my kids run through the sprinklers, completely oblivious to the sadness in the world around them. I sat there I stared off and thought, “Can good really make a dent against all this evil?” Read More
When what has been, becomes past
When what was awaited, arrives
When the heart is set free to linger and love and hold on
When the waiting and the work bear Hope's seedlings
When Future has leeway to grow wildly and without restraint
And when Rest dwells and decants and generously satisfies
Then, you're home Read More
I finally understand why every mom is being all sappy and sentimental and squeezing her kids extra tight this time of year, whether they are graduating preschool (which I mean, I still don’t believe that’s a real thing, wouldn’t promoting out of preschool be better verbiage?) or graduating from high school. There’s this desire to “Stop This Train,” and I honestly did not see all these emotions coming, but man are they are coming in strong. Read More
I’m at this place of emotional rest whilst in physical busy-ness and a smidge of chaos (move number three ((and the final move!)) coming in two weeks folks!). But after a season of such emotional upheaval, it’s hard to feel as dynamic and inspired and reflective as a writer. Read More
And then this morning I took a few minutes to read and think about Christ being dragged to an unfair trial (talk about injustice, violence, and human rights) and then murdered after being tortured and humiliated in front of crowds of people.
I felt deeply, but not mournfully per-say. Read More
I chopped our grocery bill in half and some months even cut it by two-thirds. I don’t clip coupons, I don't shop at more than two stores per trip, and I don’t jump through hoops. I have three little bitty kids, I need a system that WORKS without adding more stress to my life. My new shopping method has revolutionized our budget and today I’m going to share that method with all of you. Read More