This is where I start. This is where our story unfolds for the glory of the Almighty God. Last night, I made the grave mistake of getting my news via Facebook and I closed my browser feeling frankly, less human. Or I guess....more human, that disgusting, depressing, depraved part of my flesh--that's what my Facebook newsfeed highlighted. I went on with my night with a looming sense of "What can be done?" But I have the answer to that question.
I know what is being asked of me.
"My mouth will tell of your righteous acts,
of your deeds of salvation all the day,
for their number is past my knowledge.
With the mighty deeds of the Lord God I will come;
I will remind them of your righteousness, yours alone."
All is not lost. These two things I know and have seen. His power in the scriptures and his power in my life. So I made a place here to speak of them both. I will fight the darkness with the light. I will tell of His righteous acts.
When we moved we had no idea, no concept of the pain, the doubt, the anxiety, and the depression that would meet us down the road. But as much as it hurt, it was worth it. I'd go through it again (although I'm hoping I never have to).
It was worth it.
Before our move back to Texas our life was easy and happy, but our experience was limited. It was like driving on a road trip, the same happy, pretty route back and forth and admiring the view from the passenger seat window. I appreciated everything I could see, everything I experienced, but I had no idea how much more there was. This season of trials was like God opened our car door and walked us up to the highest edge of the highest cliff and then said "Now look."
We saw a bigger picture.
We saw how the shadows fall.
We saw deep crevasses of pain and mountaintops of healing.
We saw how the light touched it all by the end.
We saw crops growing from dry land and a hundred impossible things.
When we moved, we had each other, the Lord, and our plans. We unloaded our car that first night and our glass coffeemaker fell to the ground and shattered.
It couldn't have been more symbolic.
And there went our plans into a million painful pieces.
I loved the shiny, complete plans we brought with us. Plans that were now being swept up and carefully discarded.
*Keep your eyes out for posts tagged "Heart" to follow our story from the last six months.
"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33